Thursday 5/17

Dad is about the same. He's been confused quite a bit this week. He's lost more weight. He's lost about 17 lbs since Dec, and about 40 lbs all together. It sure is hard seeing him the way he is. I don't know if it's pregnancy hormones, or that I've just started to "grieve over the daddy I have lost". Yes, he is still with us, Praise the lord, but he is not the same Daddy that I have known for the past 29 years of my life. I can't help but shed a few tears after almost every visit with him. I guess my you could say I'm finally "mentally" accepting all this. I'm realizing my daddy won't be there for the birth of my 2nd child like he was my first. He's not there for me to call up and ask for his advice. I no longer receive those phone calls asking how in the heck he does certain things on the computer or anything else technology related. =) I miss having to remind him he has a cell phone for a reason, and there is no reason to have one if you keep it turned off when you are out and about. There is no better way to put it, other than
This sucks. None of this makes sense to any of us right now.... Hopefully one day it will. Something a dear family friend said to me back in August has stuck with me ever since. He said God is good all the time, but that doesn't mean there isn't suffering in this world. And amen! That is the truth. I remind myself of this almost daily. Thanks, Mr Don.
I was given the Jesus Calling app by another one sweet family friend. I love this app! It's a daily devotional and I feel like so many of these are just for us! I'll send Mom some from time to time and they always seem so fitting for how we are feeling. This is one of my favorites.....

Keep your eyes on Me! Waves of adversity are washing over you, and you feel tempted to give up. As your circumstances consume more and more of your attention, you are losing sight of Me. Yet I am with you always, holding you by your right hand. I am fully aware of your situation, and I will not allow you to be tempted beyond what you are able to bear.

Your gravest danger is worrying about tomorrow. If you try to carry tomorrow’s burdens today, you will stagger under the load and eventually fall flat. You must discipline yourself to live within the boundaries of today. It is in the present moment that I walk close to you, helping you carry your burdens. Keep your focus on My Presence in the present.

Gosh.... I tear up every time I read this. Friends, please take a moment and let your loved ones know how much you care for them. You never know what tomorrow may bring.

Before I sign off ( I have been interrupted 4 times while writing this post by a certain 2 1/2 year old), I want to share a few pictures. Gracie and I had Pop duty last wkend since Mom was in Oxford. Gracie and Pop did some coloring and she decided she wanted to hold his hand while she colored.





If that doesn't melt your heart, I don't know what will!!!!!



Dad sent Caroline a picture Sat morning letting her know he was thinking of her and cheering her on back in Heber.
I hope each and every one of you has a wonderful weekend. We are 3 weeks away from welcoming Baby Carley, so lots of "relaxing" is in order for us this weekend. (Is relaxation even possible with a 2 1/2 year old?!?!?!)

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